i guess i meant absolutely nothing this whole time .
I knew it . I just really tried my hardest not to fully accept it . But of course - I’m always right about these types of things . Im as useless and worthless as ever and theres nothing i can do to fix myself that i find slightly comfortable. I don’t need to put on more make up, or lose more weight or anything superficial as such .. I need to change my state of mind … I know all of this .. Yet i know when it comes time , i’ ll fail at countless attempts to get better .
Forgive me , father - for i have sinned .
please i just want to die
I want to die